Restless

Finally got my plane tkt to SF, which will be a much needed escape. I'm in that need things to move and change phase again (did i ever really leave this phase?). I daydream about leaving the city for more than just a long weekend, moving out to SF for 6months, finding some loophole around the only things that hold me here, my apartment and my job....talking with al about the possibilities, sublet my place, make rhi and i's plan for next year work so i could actually pull this off, and get a change of scenery for a bit, spend some much needed daily life quality time with al. Shift my tangible surroundings for a bit to shift the intangible landscape of my mind and find a way to bring my many other daydreams closer to reality. I'm tired of feigning patience that i don't actually have. I know what my potential is, I just need the space, the (financial)freedom, to reach it. I want what I want and I want it now.

"Look at earth from outer space
Everyone must find the place
Give me time and give me space
Give me real, don't give me fake

Give me strength, reserve control
Give me heart and give me soul
Give me time give us a kiss
Tell me your own Politik

Open up your eyes
Open up your eyes
Open up your eyes
Open up your eyes

Give me one, cause one is best
And in confusion, confidence
Give me peace of mind and trust
And don't forget the rest of us
Give me strength, reserve control
Give me heart and give me soul
Wounds that heal and cracks that fix
tell me your own politik"