life is a glorious mess

my pensive, petulent, ambilivant mood from the weekend has shifted itself into a layer of pure anxiousness and insecurity, and an unmet need for validation, these past few days. I hate being in this/these moods. they amplify my inner reactions but never my outer. which i suppose is why i'm so good at working in all the enviornments i've worked in. you need a shield, for this industry. for life i suppose, in general. it's just a matter of knowing when it's time to take it down. and that's where i second guess myself.